MUSIC

Hard To Lose

Released November 2009

  • Lyrics

    Love Song

    Can you feel the sings of me
    Can you feel the signs of me
    You can take this not forsake this
    Look inside your dreams

    Raw to the bone shivering cold
    Nothing left standing everyone is alone
    Look inside your dreams

    Where has the fire gone
    Where has the fire gone

    Can you feel the signs of me
    Can you feel the signs of me
    My heart in a cage, who do we blame
    I’ll stand strong if you stand strong

    This is not a love song
    This is not a love song
    This is not love
    This is not love

    You don't own me I don't own you
    If you don’t know me how can I show you

    This is not a love song
    This is not a love song
    This is not a love song
    This is not a love song

    Hard To Lose

    When they fall they don’t blow away
    Bleed the blue and the sky turns grey
    You’re not the you of yesterday
    What’d you do how’d you let yourself fade away

    Sometimes when the chips are down
    Gotta bury those thoughts straight into the ground
    All aside you’re not a lie
    Don’t blame me it was the other guy

    Oh my friends please what’s the deal
    What possesses one to steal
    A mind like yours is a gift to use
    Right or wrong for you to choose

    Got caught up and couldn’t be saved
    Hope and help never got in your way
    Slow down the rides gotta stop
    Better get in line now before you lose your spot

    No one told you sorry no one showed you
    Maybe long ago I could have warned you of this day
    Lost every trusting friend still your name we all defend
    I am empty and feel used friends like mine are hard to lose
    Friends like mine are hard to lose
    Friends like mine are hard to lose
    Friends like mine are hard to lose

    Alabama

    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean
    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean

    You don't have to keep your guard up all the time
    When I tell you everything will be just fine
    Sitting on the window pane she's cryin'

    You don't have to let your work get in the way
    When I tell you everything will be okay

    And on the edge of the night you say to me

    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean
    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean

    Let's get married
    We can drive to L.A.
    I'll fill up the car
    So we can leave right away
    I feel like the king
    Do you Do you feel like a queen
    Alabama won't you please come clean

    I can get your stuff back right away
    Tell me where it is you used to stay
    We'll make that sick minded brother pay

    I can do your dirty work I don't mind
    Leave this life of yours behind
    Just please come back inside

    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean
    Come clean Alabama come clean
    Alabama come clean

    Broken Girl

    What’s the matter
    I’m torn and tattered she said
    Bruised and battered
    And left out in the cold

    Come here than you
    I will defend you
    Til the end your heart is mine to hold

    Steps back and catches her breath
    Eyes unwilling, emotionless
    Takes off into the night
    Sleeping with friends just ain’t her style

    This love will not be torn apart again
    These words will never reach your ears again

    Running fast
    She’s free at last
    Not looking back
    But got no place to go

    Time defeats her
    Seasons beat her
    Conscience eats her
    Losing all control

    Breaks down and can’t understand
    How the world ever got the upper hand
    We can start right where we left off
    You can try all you want but the trust is lost

    This love will not be torn apart again
    This hand will never feel your touch again
    These words will never reach your ears again
    This love will not be torn apart again

    Valentine

    In a world so far away
    At the dawn of yesterday
    You were carved out of my eyes
    With your tricks and your pocket sleeves
    With your wit as thick as a midnight thieve
    You believing all your lies

    You floating by like you’ve never been caught
    And you’ve never been down
    Dance around in the poison rain
    You whisper something but no one cares to ever listen
    To the words of a jaded brain

    Valentine

    You wisp and you kick up the sand
    While the world spins around in your hand
    Well here’s your chance to shine
    Your friends are no friends of mine
    We can leave they’d all be just fine
    They just take up all my time

    Too proud you could never back down
    But it’s never too late to turn it all around
    Wash your hands from the poison rain
    Shout it out let it out I’m right here and I might listen
    To your reasons of the minds you play

    Valentine

    Floating on a cloud together
    Through the lightening and the thunder
    Somewhere out there is a blue sky
    So take your seat and hold on tight

    Valentine

    Rollercoaster Man

    If I fall down again
    Would you still be my friend
    Through the thick and the thin
    Feeling down I feel great again

    Rollercoaster man

    Don’t think about me I’ll be fine
    I’m not quite there but I can’t decide
    Living out a dream that isn’t even mine
    Feel so tired maybe I should drive

    Rollercoaster man
    Can’t you see we have a master plan

    If I fall down again
    Would you still be my friend
    Through the thick and the thin
    Feeling down I feel great again

    Rollercoaster man
    Can’t you see we have a master plan
    You’re off your track and out of your mind again
    Rollercoaster man

    Chasing Rainbows

    Lonely days are gone
    So you’re moving on
    Been fighting the good fight now for way too long

    So without good-bye
    Left no sign
    There is something peculiar about a face that bears no smile

    I want to shake things up
    I want to bring you back but you too far gone

    Did you enjoy the time you spent here
    While you were chasing rainbows

    Some dreams they just don’t come true
    No matter how close you follow

    But if you take the path less traveled
    I think you’ll often find
    You’re going to slip the tricks unraveled
    You’re going to miss the signs

    I wanna take you and shake you up
    I wanna drown whatever makes you this way
    You sit all alone and don’t say a word
    And your eyes are so misleading
    Like an abstract photograph
    Talk in rhymes with sort lived meaning
    You go you’re gone
    And you never let on
    Believe your delusions
    So you know you can't be wrong

    I wanna put back all these little pieces in place
    I wanna reach out and pull you back down but you’re gone

    Alone in the rain
    I cant fight this off and take the blame
    Give up your choice
    If you don’t speak up and make some noise
    Countless friends around
    The whole world’s not trying to keep you down
    Too late for you now
    But the next one will get through some how

    I know it I know
    It has got to be this way
    I know it I know
    It has got to be this way

    Taste

    There is something on my mind
    There’s a girl who drains me dry
    Went away
    Came back today
    Looking for something to satisfy

    Can I get another
    Just a little taste
    Can I get another
    Pretty little face

    Baby I got nothing left
    Money’s gone and all been spent
    Said that’s fine
    That’s alright
    As long as there’s enough to get me through the night

    Can I get another
    Just a little taste
    Can I get another
    Pretty little face

    She’s alive
    She’s alive
    Dancing with those bedroom eyes
    Went away
    Came back today
    Looking for something to satisfy

    Can I get another
    Just a little taste
    Can I get another
    Pretty little face

    High Street

    Mad dog teeth dripping blood and skin
    Lyin’ like a lover living out in sin
    Street baby one eye lazy hitchin’ on a ride
    Following her demons leaving dreaming to the other guy

    Got a soul with demands she can’t understand
    Eyes like fire with a delicate hand

    She says I got those days where I just don’t know
    The summertime when the sun beats low
    Spent my money on a bus ride home
    Knock 3 times and come alone
    But when you leave
    You better believe I’m gonna let you go

    You can’t hide behind that disguise
    I’ll put the fire out in your eyes
    Light a smoke, take a seat
    Tell the truth and don’t lie to me
    She’s livin’ life on High street
    Feelin’ fine with a buzz like a bee
    Broken heels and a staggered walk
    Conversations with herself she talk

    She’s flyin’
    She’s on High
    Flyin’ high
    She’s flying

    She says I got those days where I just don’t know
    The summertime when the sun beats low
    Spent my money on a bus ride home
    Knock 3 times and come alone
    But when you leave
    You better believe I’m gonna let you go

    Shut You Down

    Don’t know what it was or how it made time stand still
    Something in my sights, looking hard but I just can’t tell
    How days like these seem to come and go as they please
    Build me up just to leave me all alone

    Don’t know how to read these lines they just don’t seem clear
    I can rub my eyes all I want but it won’t disappear
    Got a feeling so strong that it must keep moving on
    Like the morning sun you come and then you're gone

    Head shakes with the question on my mind
    (Don’t have time don’t have time)
    Heart break I fell my vital signs
    (Are way out of line, way out of line)
    Maybe there’s a meaning in this something I just can’t find
    But it just won’t let me shut you down tonight

    Oh my ghost will lead me when I sleep
    Count the lives I’ve lived before me
    And if the stars want to keep me awake
    I know there’s nothing my soul cannot take

    My World

    What to do when they push you through
    So you can make it in better time
    Got to be something so much better
    Mirror speaks with the lines and streaks
    And your face is showing age
    The look in your eye is so much older

    But there can’t be words that can be worse
    Then when they fill your head with the devil’s verse
    If there’s one for them you know there’s one for you
    It’s all messed up but life is too
    Life is too

    You’re going to make it
    You’re going to make it
    You’re going to make it
    In my world

    I’ll fight when the time is right
    But I know that it’s not now
    Got to be something so much better
    You’re a dream that always seems
    To slip into my day
    But you could be something so much bigger

    But you can’t rely on the other guy
    No matter how hard you want or how hard you try
    At the end of the day it’s all up to you
    When they pull you out or they push you through
    They’re gonna push you through

    You’re going to make it
    You’re going to make it
    You’re going to make it
    In my world

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    1 Love Song
    2 Hard To Lose
    3 Alabama
    4 Broken Girl
    5 Valentine
    6 Rollercoaster Man
    7 Chasing Rainbows
    8 Taste
    9 High Street
    10 Shut You Down
    11 My World

    The Way It Goes

    Released October 2008

  • Lyrics

    Devil's Choir

    I am so sick of all the jealousy pretending and the hate
    Time is much to short here to not appreciate
    But now you just sit there and you’re crying all alone
    Your words ring in my head there’s nothing left so I am gone

    I can’t hear you but I’m listening
    Tell me is there something that I’m missing
    Frozen mind and a head on fire
    Two wrong notes in the angel’s choir

    Kiss me diss me you’ll never miss me I’d like to think the same
    Been down so many times before I’ll never go there again
    Now you see that I’m just me No hero from a story book
    Try and I try to forget your smile And all the love you took

    I’m not scared but I’m shivering
    You don’t get the way I’m living
    Frozen spine and a head on fire
    Singing perfect pitch in the devil’s choir
    Singing perfect pitch in the devil’s choir
    Singing perfect pitch in the devil’s choir

    The Way It Goes

    I’m a man I’m a man of words though often misunderstood
    Run away run away from things I’m not so sure I should
    Believe that this is real
    Cause it’s not the way it really feels
    Like a dream where I can't fly
    Hit the ground but never die
    Always seem to wake up just in time

    Though I’d really like you to know
    Just how far this train can really go
    Arriving at the turnstile just a little bit too slow
    It’s the way it goes

    Tell me things tell me things please do
    That I will understand
    Stick around stick around for a while just as long as I can
    But please try not to bore me
    Or tell me that you really adore me
    I’m sorry but for this I have no time

    Though I’d really like you to stay
    It makes no difference here now anyway
    Now that all the games have all been played I know
    It’s just the way it goes

    I’m all alone all alone
    Waiting for my chance to go
    Leave me here leave me here
    I just want to stay right here alone

    Just the way it goes
    I’m all alone
    It’s the way it goes
    It’s the way it goes

    Take It

    Come on sunshine show your face again
    Standing in the rain I’m soaking wet
    Feel the cold shiver down to my bone
    Just a lost soul walking down the middle of the road
    Ain’t got a hope ain’t got a home
    Just a lost soul running down the middle of the lonely road

    Take it
    If you want it
    Once you got it
    You’ll never break it
    If you want it
    You got to take it
    You got to own it
    If you want to make it

    Look out storm clouds I will bring the light
    Drying up the rain let my soul shine
    Feel the scold burning down to the bone
    Just a lost soul walking down the middle of the road
    Ain’t got a hope aint got a home
    Just a lost soul running down the middle of the lonely road

    Take it
    If you want it
    Once you got it
    You’ll never break it
    If you want it
    You got to take it
    You got to own it
    If you want to make it

    Empty Arms Again

    From my heart I feel you slip away
    The sun is shining but I have seen a better day
    All your words they’re spinning around my head
    Even the ones that were all left unsaid again

    And I wanted to be the better man
    I wanted to be the better one
    But on left me hung on a line again
    Ya you left me hung and

    I can’t wait and I can’t win
    Swinging empty arms again
    Pull me out just to push me in
    Swinging empty arms again

    Push and pull and take is all you do
    Everything you’ve done it’s all about you
    But I won’t hold my head and walk away
    Not before these words that I just have to say

    That I wanted to be the better man
    I wanted to be the better one
    But you left me hung on a line again
    You left me hung and

    I can’t wait and I can’t win
    Swinging empty arms again
    Pull me out just to let me in
    Swinging empty arms again
    Swinging empty arms again

    I want something back
    Won’t you give me something back
    I want something back
    Won’t you give me something

    I can’t wait and I can’t win
    Swinging empty arms again
    Pull me out just to let me in
    Swinging empty arms again
    Swinging empty arms again
    Swinging empty arms again
    Swinging empty arms again

    Carry Me

    Sit alone and wonder while the rain comes down
    Sit alone and wonder will my brain come down
    Think of what you said
    Think of what you did
    And it’s all just bottled up and it’s rolling around my head
    It feels just like the day I was born

    Through the rolling thunder I see a break in the clouds
    Through the rolling thunder I see your face in the clouds
    And it’s looking down at me with a sullen face
    Frustration bottled up now I’m ready to fall from grace
    It feels just like the day I was born

    Carry me away...

    The News

    All around me everything is grey
    Everywhere the people act so strange

    There’s a certain unease in the air tonight
    Something ain’t feeling right
    A certain unease in the air tonight
    Something ain’t feeling right

    Everywhere the people act so strange

    Crowds come swarming without warning
    One by one they fall
    Broken silence turn to violence
    One by one they fall

    I feel like I’ve been here before
    I feel like I’ve been here before

    Miss This

    Give me something
    Give me something to go on
    On the surface
    I’m a serpent with lamb’s clothes on
    Find a reason
    If there’s a reason to care
    But don’t go looking
    Don’t go looking cause I won’t be there

    But if you want me to I will wait it out with you
    And if you’re left afraid remember what your mother said

    Miss this
    Do you miss this kiss this
    Do you miss this mess and all the rest
    I’ll be what you want me to be

    I need time
    I need room to grow
    Give me something that I can take
    Nice and slow
    I’m a reason
    I’m a reason to try
    I’m a wonder
    I’m a wonder you don’t ask why
    But if there’s something on your mind
    Let it out let it out don’t have to hide

    Miss this
    Do you miss this kiss this
    Do you miss this mess and all the rest
    I’ll be what you want me to be
    Miss this
    Do you miss this kiss this
    Do you miss this mess and all the rest
    I’ll be what you want me to be

    Finally Gone

    Is it the colour
    Is it the smell
    Is it the way you look so pretty on my shelf

    You’ve got your reasons
    I don’t understand
    You buzz around I smack you down with my hand

    Though I don’t mean to hurt you
    I’m sure there’s no suffering
    I’m not sure you feel
    But there just always seems to be one more to kill

    You make me feel dirty
    As clean as I am
    In my space and in my place and in my head

    You fly away
    Just as fast as you can
    Hiding from a fate you can’t disband

    You can hide all night
    You won’t get burned
    You’ll just get your turn
    You keep coming back for more you never learn

    You’re finally dead
    You’re finally gone
    Looks like you weren’t so tough here all along

    Can’t say I miss you
    And I’m not gonna lie
    I never want to see another fruit fly

    Though it hurts to kill anything
    Even something so small
    I hope I got you all
    Keep coming back for more you just don’t learn

    This Town

    I walk alone, along the cobbled stone
    I Don’t mind the rain, the sun will shine again

    On come the street lights
    Dark faces they highlight
    Your ghost it follows me wherever I go
    Haunting my footsteps
    Stand by the doorstep
    Waiting for something but nothing will change

    I came alive in this town
    I felt you die in this town
    I’m not alone, but I’m miles away from home
    I missed my ride, and it’s colder and dark outside

    Peer through the window
    You’re standing there solo
    Singing your heart out to the Saturday crowd
    Dead dreams of grandeur
    A cold night in November
    I follow the moon and the drift of the clouds

    My shadow is your ghost in this town
    I was the one you knew the most in this town

    I love what you’ve got
    You’re everything I’m not
    Your body may rest but your spirit will not
    Never go away
    I’ll never let you down
    I won’t take one step from this place that you’re bound

    This town

    With Eyes That Never Lie

    Oh won’t you tell me
    She’s biting her lip
    I’m losing my mind
    Got something to say
    Keep it all inside
    Won’t you tell me

    Oh won’t you show me
    Crawling up in her sleeve
    I’m out on my own
    And disagree
    Hanging up on the phone
    Won’t you show me

    Your eyes they never lie
    Tell me what is it you hide
    Won’t you tell me
    Your voice is crackling
    Show me all and everything
    Won’t you show me

    Oh won’t you help me
    I’m down on my luck
    She’s on top of her game
    And sending me signs
    To deliver the pain
    Won’t you help me

    What does it mean to you
    When you never say what you never do
    Help me if you can
    Please help me understand you
    Won’t you help me

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    1 Devil's Choir
    2 They Way It Goes
    3 Take It
    4 Empty Arms Again
    5 Carry Me
    6 The News
    7 Miss Thiss
    8 Finally Gone
    9 This Town (a ballad of her ghost)
    10 With Eyes That Never Lie